I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him until that day. 2 Timothy 1:12b NIV
I shared with some folks the other day how unhappy I am with all this social distancing. I’m unhappy with the lack of control I have over others and the choices they make. I’m grieving the loss of my personal freedom. I expect the same is true for some of you.
We are living in a hard time that could be difficult for many and yet, God maintains control.
Control is the power to influence or direct people’s behavior or the course of events that take place in our collective or personal lives. Right now, there’s not much of that to be had, which leads to temptation. Temptation to doubt or be less than convinced that God is driving this bus.
Someone else in Scripture felt the way I do right now, so I’ve looked to him for insight.
When Job asked God, “Why me? Why now?” he got this reply:
“Can you pull in Leviathan with a fishhook
or tie down its tongue with a rope?
Can you put a cord through its nose
or pierce its jaw with a hook?
Will it keep begging you for mercy?
Will it speak to you with gentle words?
Will it make an agreement with you
for you to take it as your slave for life?” Job 41:1-4 NIV [emphasis mine. ljh]
Those last two lines brought me up short.
Is that what I have been doing by wishing I could control things?
Oh, Lord, is that what I’m doing with my complaining…with my efforts to seize control? I’m sorry. Truly sorry! I know that asking You to be my slave and serve my purposes, is evil. I repent of that kind of thinking, right now, and I ask for Your mercy. I want You to be Lord of me, and not the other way ‘round. Forgive me, I pray, In Jesus’ Name.
Where are you wishing you had more control in your life? What loss are you grieving today?